First Post

Can someone tell me who I am?

Isn't that some silly song from Supertramp? Isn't it a cliché, adolescent question?

Well, once again I find myself asking this question, and again feeling guilty about it. Feeling like a man my age (34), and in my situation, should have had a solid plan a long time ago.

This my first blog, is meant to be more of a journal for the moment. So that I can gather my thoughts and find some order in chaos. Of course advice and encouragement are welcome. I know that I am not the only one out there going through a career crisis. I am thinking of a book I read a while ago called 'What should I do with my life', by Po Bronson. It was a great read, but as it warns, it does not provide answers. It did make me feel less guilty at the time. It is certainly normal to reconsider one's path, how one spends his days and earns a living. But enough is enough right? A move must be made eventually.

I will be looking back on the last year of my life. My girlfriend and I bought our first house and went through renovation hell. In the worst part of that insanity, we found out we were pregnant. We got lots of help from family, and now the house is livable. Our son was born July 9th and he is absolutely great.

But through all this I was also experiencing some major setbacks in my career. So I will be looking back on the last 5 five, which I have spent as a cameraman and video editor for the daily news. And of course, on the time I wasted before that, at Concordia University and Simon Fraser University.

I went to see a career counselor a few months ago, I will be writing down every avenue I have considered, and hopefully coming back to read my own thoughts and make some sense of it all.

If I do end up with a new job in a new industry, I will throw a major party and you are all invited.